Today begins the last week of me being home with my Missy Pants. It's bittersweet really: I'm looking forward to having a schedule and getting out of the house every day, but I'm so sad that another lucky person will get to spend their day with my sweet baby girl! I'm so thankful that the person watching Ali is a good friend of mine, so at least she won't be at a daycare where she is 1 of 10... but it's still hard! I don't want to stay at home anymore, but I don't want to be away from her! Why can't I just teach with her strapped in the front-back, geez!!! :-)
I find myself worrying that she will replace me with the daycare provider, and that she is growing and changing so much I will miss something spectacular and never forgive myself. I know that children go to daycare every day- Hell, I went to daycare and still think my mom is the bestest... and now I'm going to stop freaking out.
The beauty is that after I go back, there is only three weeks until we get a day off for Veteran's Day, then comes Thanksgiving followed by Christmas Break, so I won't have too long of stretches between when we can be together again.
It will be fine once I get back into the swing of things, it's just hard to think about right now :(
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It is so hard to leave them. It is just not natural AT ALL. It hurts every single time I leave him and has not gotten easier the older he has gotten, however, I know that I am a better person for him by going to work. It keeps me sane. I have to say that I felt the same way about wondering if he would replace the daycare ladies for me...not a chance. He is SO EXCITED now when I pick him up. It is a great feeling!
OMG I was right there not long ago and although she will no doubt be fine, always listen to your gut. I couldn't do it, but i talked with hubs and we made it work with me home.
I undestand your feelings SO much! My son is almost 8 and has been in daycare since he was 9 months and I STILL feel like that a lot! However now the difference is it's so much more fun at the after school programs then home! Go figure. What a great career to have to be raising kids though since you do get so much time off with her. Enjoy your last week!
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Best wishes with the adjustment of going back to work. I remember how hard that was. I cried a lot. You will get through it even tho it will feel next to impossible. You are lucky to have someone great caring for her while you are away from her.
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