I'm back, and I love Roche Harbor! I had so much fun with Lynne and her family-she's got 5 kiddos- it was great to have fun the old fashion way. We went crabbing during the day, shrimping at night, rented kayaks, and even saw two seals! I enjoyed myself very much, and loved the vacation time. I love being around the ocean: definitely a vacation spot for the future with my hubbie.
I also had a sad moment- not pregnant again. I actually cried from disappointment this time. Usually, I get bummed but I know in the back of my mind that it's not the right time. But this time, I was ready to be pregnant.
Now I'm starting to feel like it is never going to happen for me. I will never get that gift of being pregnant, and I can't understand what isn't working. How long are we going to have to try at this? I'm average on everything: average height, weight, shoe size, cycle length, etc etc. I just don't understand why I can't be average at getting pregnant- or if that even exists!
I'm clueless and frustrated.
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Ugh. It is frustrating. I know exactly how you feel... I already had a child, and was doing everything right. I kept wondering what the deal was, and asking myself, "why isn't this happening for me?!" Just don't try to stress yourself out, I know it is cliche, but it will happen, and in God's time. Plus, fate likes to play with us. If you were pregnant now, you would be due in the spring... and karma is a bitch. It wants you to get pregnant in the next couple of months... that way you are in your third trimester during the dog days of summer. :D
Crabbing? Shrimping? I've never done those things! I want to go! Tell me more, and do you have pictures?
That is really frustrating about another month no baby. Ditto on what Andria said. But I did have to laugh because "shoe size"? What does shoe size have to do with fertility?! :)
So sorry you're not prego. It is a frustrating venture and we women tend to obsess about those things that don't happen at the speed in which we would like. Hang in there. Glad you enjoyed your vacation!
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