The Big... 1!!

KK and I will celebrate our first year together as husband and wifey on Sunday.


It is hard to believe that it was one year ago that we had our BIG day.. it seems like it went sooo quick, but also seems like a lifetime ago. It is also crazy to reflect on how much we have done since last August: we completely updated a home, put it on the market, and sold it. We moved into a brand new house, got a new car, and decided to expand our family (still working on that one)
Let me just say that I am truly blessed with this man. He is mellow, hard-working, caring, and loves my crazy self no matter what ! He even lets me show him my karate moves, in the bathroom, without calling the looney-bin to come pick me up. Seriosly, I am a strange gal, it must be weird to watch me sometimes.... Anyways, KK is great, and I'm SUPER BLESSED to have him. I really don't know how I got so lucky. I thank God for him every day.



We're heading up to the cabin for the weekend to celebrate and relax... our last hoorah before going back to school on Wednesday- I can't believe summer is over :-(

Not Again!

Here I am, living yet another baby-less month. This month, I'm very sad. I'm not a sad gal- I find happiness in all situations- but I just can't make a joke this time.
I'm starting to believe that God doesn't want this to happen for us. I feel like I'm supposed to T be learning patience, and faith. I know that the BIG PLAN exists for me, that God has me in the palm of His hand, and that He has a reason and season for it all- but I am so sad. I want this. I want a little family of three. My loving husband deserves so much to be a daddy. And he's sad too. He even suggested I might go to the doctor. I'm not ready to face that yet. I don't want something to be wrong.
I'm trying to listen to my positive friends: they all talk about how we have had such a stressful lifestyle since we started trying to conceive- the house was for sale, then sold, then living in the dreaded basement. Everyone just says "oh, yeah, for SURE it will happen any second now that you are in your new house", like being in our great house is supposed to solve everything. Truth is, I feel exactly the same way, stress-wise, as I did when we weren't selling/in limbo/living in hell/moving. I've been stressed before, and I don't feel that way right now. I don't really feel stressed about being pregnant at all. I just feel upset that I'm not. I can't figure it out.
I've got a great husband, who I am so in love with lately you can't even believe it. Our relationship is awesome, we've almost hit the year mark! I love my house and family, I'm thankful for where we are living and am looking forward to getting back to teaching soon... SO WHAT'S THE PROBLEM!!!!!!!!??????????????
Angry and sad, that's how I feel. I can't stop thinking about it.
So I ask the experts out there in blog land- should I see the doc? Has anyone ever tried any of those fertility drugs they sell on babycenter.com? Please prayer for me, and give any advice!

New House & New Car

Here is a "real-life" picture of my new digs. Pay no mind to the dirt yard, hydro-seed is on the (long) list of to-do's :)
Also, notice the white Toyota Camry in the garage- I thought I was making a sacrifice by turning in my Highlander to reduce my monthly car payments... gotta have more moolah to spend on my cute new house! turns out- I LOVE the Camry! Not only is it cute and sporty, it gets great gas mileage, is totally comfy- and I love having a white car! There's something to be said about white cars: classy, cute, and practical for North Idaho weather.. you get it.



Other than that- life has been pretty steady... I've got one more week at the water company, then I'm taking a week and a half break before we have to be back at school, getting all ready for the kiddos to start another year. Weird how summer flies by, but winter goes soooo slooooowww.... but it will be nice to be back into the swing of my 'real' job. I like getting off work by 4 at the latest- plus, school starting means fall, which means FOOTBALL!