I feel like I cannot get my head around my life these days. Work is draining and overwhelming and I have not been ahead of lesson planning and grading since day 1. So I work my butt off all day at work, and then I go home and do the same. There are dishes and laundry and toys and lunches to be made and bottles to be made and and and... it goes on and on.
So I am feeling... tired/stressed/sad/tired/annoyed/helpless.
I just want it all to slow down! I want to feel like, when I leave my job at the end of the day, that I accomplished something. I don't want to feel tired every time I come to work and see my desk littered with papers and totally unorganized. Being unorganized totally stresses me out.
I want to feel like I have energy when I get home to get simple tasks completed. I want to feel like I hug and love my girls enough to fill my heart back up.
I don't want to feel like life is passing me by and the things I enjoyed for my own personal, selfish reasons can be a part of my life again.
And I want my almost 5 month old to sleep through the night already!
And I want a back rub, cause my upper back totally hurts.