Darn

Well, definately not pregnant this month. Guess we will have to have another go of it in 10-14 days. I usually am a patient person, but this particular area is hard to wait for. I am a firm believer in God and His plan, but I still turn into that bratty little child and ask, "why can't I have it noooowww??" I know that there is a grander plan and timing is everything, so I just need to relax and let nature take its course.

I am a doer, though. When I want stuff done, it gets done. I mean, look at my life. I graduated college and secured a teaching job, at the school I wanted, in the teaching area I wanted, (something that is VERY hard to do in my area, I might add) and I did it all before the age of 23.
So, now that we have tried 2 times to get pregnant, with no results, I am racing through my brain all of the physical problems I could have and what am I going to do if it is all of a sudden 6 months later, and we're still trying??
I know, I know... everyone is going to tell me to just relax, because stressing out does not help matters. But really, I'm not stressed. I just want to be pregnant! My heart swells every time I hear a baby make any noise, when my friends all show me their nurseries and fun clothes, books, toys they are all buying for their new babies, I just feel lonely. My husband is getting antsy too. He looked at me across dinner 2 nights ago and said, "we really need to get serious about this baby-making business, Kel."

I know my turn will come soon, but I want to take my turn NOW!

Whew! Glad that's over

So this is how my Mother's Day started off. I got to thinking about it, and 7 of my friends are pregnant at the moment- SEVEN! Not just seven people who I know, SEVEN people I interact with on a daily or at least weekly basis. THREE of these people happen to be my close friends, and out of the seven ladies in my bible study, FOUR are pregnant! That is a lotta women with child... and NOT ONE OF THEM IS ME!! Ok Ok, so I've only been "trying" for 2 months now, but I WANT ONE TOO! Today my hubbie and I had a serious talk- we are going to really work hard at it next ovulation period, or when the moon, stars, and hay is all growing the right direction, as my husband seems to think this whole pregnancy thing is a wives' tale or something...silly man.

Ok, so that was the morning of Mother's Day.
Then I get this call from my own Mother at around 2:00ish, telling me my Grandpa has slipped into a non-responsive state and I better come say goodbye. Not to confuse anyone, I'm not making light of this, just feels good to talk about it this way, now that it's all over. So Kris and I rush over to visit him in the nursing home, and it's bad. Real. Scary. Bad. I thought yesterday was the last day my sweet Grampy would be around, and I could never tell him thanks for all the fun memories and just how great he is and how much I absolutely love him in my whole heart. Thinking about naming my first born son something with Robert Kenneth it in. Everyone was crying, it was so horrible. We left around 8:30, and I had a bad night of no sleep and dreams in between of Grandpa of the 90s.. good times, good times
So my mom calls me at 7:00 this morning to tell me that Grandpa came out of it, back to the old grumpy, tired, Grandpa that we all know and love (dearly). What a relief! But not a day I want to see again soon.

Good Day

Today has been a great day. My husband and I finally got our tax return back, and we went crazy spending! Well, not really, and if I was a 21 year old looking at my life, I would think, boooring place to spend money.
We bought:
- Deck stain and stained our awesome, huge deck
- A big table that seats six, for our newly painted/stained awesome deck
-6 chairs for our big table
- A red maple tree from the best nursery, Northland, to replace the tree our dogs' pee killed over the winter (cheap tree from Home Depot)
-2 tickets to the BIG EASY to watch Ryan Shupe and the Rubber Band tonight!

It was super fun digging around in my plants this morning. I finally set up a bird bath my mother-in-law gave me at my bridal shower. I also cleaned up the yard and planted some free perennials we got from Teacher Appreciation Week at school. Now all I need to do is clean the house, and I will be set! Only, it's not too fun cleaning inside on a sunny day- maybe I'll just wait for the next cloudy one, hehe.

7 random things

Kerdog tagged me to list off 7 random things about myself... pretty much everything I do is random, so hopefully this won't be too hard!
1. My first job, at 15 years old, was a hostess with the mostess at Denny's
2. I lived in Spain for 6 months as a foreign exchange student my junior year of college
3. I was in a sorority, Kappa Delta, at the University of Idaho
4. I really like animals, I could be that crazy cat person, if my dog and husband didn't hate them!
5. I am an internet junkie
6. I love to learn! I am getting my Master's Degree in Educational Administration currently, but still want another one in Technology.
7. I wish I had more time to watch MORE reality TV - I LOVE IT

I'm tagging cougchick, kristi, ann, and sara :)

Summer Job

Considering that there is a little over a month's worth of school left ( I am a Spanish teacher at Lake City High School) I have begun the summer job search. We could use the extra money and I can't imagine spending 2.5 months relaxing (too much OCD for that!). I am thinking of a fun, part-time serving position or something else that is non-stress and where I won't run into a lot of high schoolers... if any of y'all out there have a suggestion, send it my way!

Dear Baby

Before you were conceived I wanted you
Before you were born I loved you
Before you were here an hour I would die for you
This is the miracle of love.

-- Maureen Hawkins

Whoo Hoo For Friday!

I love Fridays- I never get sick of them! Grey's Anatomy was soooo good last night, although the producers were totally hooking us loyal viewers into their spin off show with Addison- which by the way I think will be pretty good.. the guy from WINGS is still soo hot, even after all these years! And Taye Diggs, love looking at that man... I'm really happy that Meridith and Shepard are working it out, they are, aren't they? Man, I live for my TV! It's the only excitement I have- Tuesday and Wednesday is American Idol ( GO BLAKE) and Thursday is Grey's! It keeps me going... but Fridays are so good I don't even need TV :)
Wish me luck at Bloomsday- don't worry, I'm not running, just don't want to get the shin splits that plague me every year!