Well, definately not pregnant this month. Guess we will have to have another go of it in 10-14 days. I usually am a patient person, but this particular area is hard to wait for. I am a firm believer in God and His plan, but I still turn into that bratty little child and ask, "why can't I have it noooowww??" I know that there is a grander plan and timing is everything, so I just need to relax and let nature take its course.
I am a doer, though. When I want stuff done, it gets done. I mean, look at my life. I graduated college and secured a teaching job, at the school I wanted, in the teaching area I wanted, (something that is VERY hard to do in my area, I might add) and I did it all before the age of 23.
So, now that we have tried 2 times to get pregnant, with no results, I am racing through my brain all of the physical problems I could have and what am I going to do if it is all of a sudden 6 months later, and we're still trying??
I know, I know... everyone is going to tell me to just relax, because stressing out does not help matters. But really, I'm not stressed. I just want to be pregnant! My heart swells every time I hear a baby make any noise, when my friends all show me their nurseries and fun clothes, books, toys they are all buying for their new babies, I just feel lonely. My husband is getting antsy too. He looked at me across dinner 2 nights ago and said, "we really need to get serious about this baby-making business, Kel."
I know my turn will come soon, but I want to take my turn NOW!