Tuesday, August 31, 2010

Back to School, Back to School

Tomorrow is my first day back at work since May 5th.  I've got mixed feelings about working again.  Part of me is ready to get back into the schedule; ready to feel like I have a purpose every day; and ready to not feel like all that I do is slave away around the house, just to start the cycle over again each day.  I really like working- I like the people I work with, and I like that teaching high school proves to be a job that gives you something new every day to experience.
But I am very sad about being away from my girls all day.  This summer was a blast- Ali was super fun and we got to experience a ton of fun stuff with her. Plus, I enjoyed how spontaneous we were as a family: never living on a schedule, just coming up with activities and doing whatever we felt like for the day.  Avery is getting to be so much fun and so full of life; I am sad that someone else gets to cuddle and love her for 8 hours a day that isn't me... but we do love our daycare so much and if my girls have to be somewhere away from us, I am thankful we have a loving, fun environment to send them to.
I am also feeling mixed emotions because today, instead of doing something super fun as a family to signify the end of our summer, I am slaving away at my house- trying to get all laundry cleaned, all toilets sparkling, and all floors vacuumed. Oh, and take care of my husband, who has bulging disks in his back; and while I do feel so sorry for him because of the pain he is in, I am secretly willing him to get better ASAP so that I don't have to not only clean up my house, and take care of my children, but also wait on him hand and foot.  I am soo not good at sympathy- I really hope he gets over this soon!
I am going to try to spend the afternoon soaking in my beautiful children... and doing a little relaxing... just a little anxious to see what it's like to work full time and get two kids ready every day- ahhh!


asthefarmturns said...

I hope your first week is going good. :)

Marla @ www.asthefarmturns.wordpress.com

FROGGITY! said...

good luck on BTS!!! also hope your hubby feels better. you sound like super mom! :)

Lindsay said...

I hope you're loving being back in your routine!! Sometime I wish I had that again, bc I swear being at home is the hardest, non-paying job I have ever done! HA! I hope your Hubby gets better soon, for your sake, too :)!! XOXO

Stacey said...

Oh, I hope your first week back went well. I can so empathize with everything you're feeling in this post. I go back on Tuesday and feel so conflicted about the whole thing. It's so tough, isn't it? Hang in there and I can't wait to hear how it all went. ;)

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