Tomorrow is my first day back at work since May 5th. I've got mixed feelings about working again. Part of me is ready to get back into the schedule; ready to feel like I have a purpose every day; and ready to not feel like all that I do is slave away around the house, just to start the cycle over again each day. I really like working- I like the people I work with, and I like that teaching high school proves to be a job that gives you something new every day to experience.
But I am very sad about being away from my girls all day. This summer was a blast- Ali was super fun and we got to experience a ton of fun stuff with her. Plus, I enjoyed how spontaneous we were as a family: never living on a schedule, just coming up with activities and doing whatever we felt like for the day. Avery is getting to be so much fun and so full of life; I am sad that someone else gets to cuddle and love her for 8 hours a day that isn't me... but we do love our daycare so much and if my girls have to be somewhere away from us, I am thankful we have a loving, fun environment to send them to.
I am also feeling mixed emotions because today, instead of doing something super fun as a family to signify the end of our summer, I am slaving away at my house- trying to get all laundry cleaned, all toilets sparkling, and all floors vacuumed. Oh, and take care of my husband, who has bulging disks in his back; and while I do feel so sorry for him because of the pain he is in, I am secretly willing him to get better ASAP so that I don't have to not only clean up my house, and take care of my children, but also wait on him hand and foot. I am soo not good at sympathy- I really hope he gets over this soon!
I am going to try to spend the afternoon soaking in my beautiful children... and doing a little relaxing... just a little anxious to see what it's like to work full time and get two kids ready every day- ahhh!